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Na baada ya kuwekwa mapumziko na kupatiwa matibabu na vipimo ambapo niligundulika kuwa na wadudu 6 wa malaria pia sikuwa na maji ya kutosha mwilini. Madakatari walimshauri mama anipeleke nyumbani kutokana na ukweli kuwa hali yangu haikuwa vyema kuendelea kukaa pale ningeweza kuzoa maradhi mengine. Kwa kweli nilikuwa nikipenda zaidi kuwa mtu wa kawaida na kwa kuwa niliujua ukweli kuwa naumwa nilijitahidi kujiepusha na makosa ya hapa na pale shuleni ili niepukane na adhabu na nashukuru Mungu kwa namna moja ama nyingine nilifanikiwa.

Namshukuru Mungu nilifanikiwa kumaliza kwa amani hadi kidato cha nne na matokeo yalipotoka yalikuwa mazuri na hivyo nilijiandaa kwa hatua nyingine as they always say “one step at a time” lakini katika hatua hii akili yangu ilikuwa na mpango mwengine kabisa ambao hata wazazi wangu hawakuwa wakifahamu nilikuwa nimedhamiria kubadili mazingira kabisa kwa kutaka kusoma boarding mkoa mwengine na hata katika uchaguzi wa shule nilioufanya sikuchagua hata shule moja ya jijini Dar es salaam, nilichokuwa nakiwaza na kujiuliza ni kuwa “Nitakaa na wazazi hadi lini kwanini nisijaribu uzoefu mwengine wa maisha ya peke yangu, maisha mbali na wazazi haya ni maisha kuna leo na kesho sitokaa na wazazi siku zote naweza kuolewa siku moja na ukiacha kuolewa itakuaje kama kesho wakifumba macho nitakua mgeni wa nani? Nani atakubali kuishi na mimi katika hali hii? Inanilazimu kufanya hivi, ni lazima nijifunze kujihudumia mwenyewe mtiririko wa mawazo uliendelea kupita kichwani mwangu”


And after getting there I was admitted for a short time then after some test and drip, whereby it was discovered that I had 6 viruses of malaria and my body lacked water. Doctors’ advice my mom to take me home because according to my condition it wasn’t proper to continue staying there I could get others diseases. Honestly I really liked being a normal person and because I knew the truth that I was sick I tried my best avoiding mistakes at school in order to avoid punishment and I thank God that in one way or another I managed to do so.

Thank god I succeed to complete my O level studies without problems and the results came out good so I prepared myself to move into another step as they always say “one step at a time” but ib this step my mind was having totally another plan that even my parents didn’t knew about, I intended to change the environment by wanting to study boarding school in another region and even in the selection of schools I didn’t chose even one school in Dar es salaam, what I was asking myself and thinking is “until when will I live with my parents, why dnt I try another experience of living alone, life away from my parents, this is life you never know about tomorrow I might get married one day or they may die one day I wont be with them always. So what if they die one day? Who will accept to live with me in this condition? I must do this; I must learn how to take care of myself, that the way I was thinking in my mind”